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Metanoia

by Alexander Smith

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1.
Raising 04:45
You invite me, In life you take a toll, Damned if they need, To watch as I fall, You invite me, Before you made it whole, Now that you see, Bare is my soul, Taking a stand for, Vulnerable and maybe you’re too deep at all, Going around round round and you’re trying, Taking a stand for, Vulnerable and maybe you’re too deep at all, Going around round round and you’re trying now, And I know that I won’t stop you because I know you’re shining, And I know that I won’t stop you because you are so blinding, While you’re taking a stand for...
2.
So Close 03:32
So close, So close, Things happen so fast, And then it's gone, So close, so close, But we made boundaries, When there could've been none, We planned futures, We made trust, We thought nothing, Could get between us, Even those who were close... But close was all it was... So close, So close, We may be forever lost now, But I'll always remember, How... close...
3.
You are my moon and sun, Treat you like my number one, and I want to, I want you I can't help myself too, Spend all my money on you, cuz I want to, baby I want you I don't ever doubt it, Love is all around us, babe, I want to, I want you Baby you're everything I want, Baby you're everything I need, You are my e-very-thing, Baby I love you and you got me Yeah, yeah, yeah You are my moon and sun, you are my number one, you are my everything Yeah, yeah, yeah
4.
Overthought 03:58
(Verse 1) It doesn’t matter What the world says Here is all there is And Yes I wanted you But our heads race We’re Overthinking (Chorus 1) I’m feeling you But you cannot It’s an unfair life story I can’t make you Feel when you cannot You’re the same but I have changed Can’t go back (Verse 2) Stuck inside yourself Just like me It was our downfall The mind is clear And then it’s not Overthought again (Chorus 2) You’re feeling me But I cannot It’s an unfair life story You can’t make me Feel when I cannot I’m the same but You have changed Can’t go back
5.
Listening to Twin Fantasy made me realize how incapable of love I’ve come to be The passion I used to feel for wanting someone just isn’t me Not anymore Not anymore Maybe one day it will come back, perhaps not the same Traumas can change someone forever, an everlasting pain Maybe one day Maybe one day Like how the Medication changed me, for better or for worse Is it better to be a living dead than to be in a hearse? I am not sure I am not sure Too many experiences now cause me triggers When I’m a part of any human interaction, it figures I will shut down I will shut down I even have trouble with feeling pleasure Troubles giving and receiving, no pressure It can’t be helped It can’t be helped But after Listening to Twin Fantasy it made me realize how incapable of love I’ve come to be The passion I used to feel for wanting someone just isn’t me Not anymore Not anymore
6.
Metanoia 05:52
(2x) She is healing, She carries a lot of mental anguish, Understand what she does and doesn’t tell you, You can’t fix everything, It just is, All you can do is your best to be there for her, Wait it out, It will be okay, She is healing, It will be okay
7.
Sad Song 02:41
(2x) She’s a sweet sweet girl In a lonely lonely world She’s a pretty pretty girl In a lonely lonely world She sings a sad sad sad song To a lonely lonely world
8.
“Part one” You came to me with an open mind and an open heart I was your last resort, I was on your mind, but my flaw was that I was on my mind, Living in ignorance, Too selfish, too careless, I didn’t think about your suffering, You gave me signs and I ignored them, And now it cannot be fixed, Now you are one with the atmosphere, … Now you are one with the atmosphere, Surrounding me, More than you ever have, Forever, “Part two” (2x) This is something I’ll live with This is what I’ll accept Now This is all that I can do Until the day, until the day, that I meet you

about

No words at this point in time, I can't think of how to explain this yet because this album is very sad to me. Maybe I will come back and change this later on.

8/16/22 - I'm back and feeling a little better. Just give brief details of tracks. Raising is dedicated to my mom raising me, but the lyrics are disjointed because I wanted the syllables to fit with the melody in my head.
So Close lyrics was done years ago based on a long distance relationship I was in.
You're My Everything and Sad Song are both songs I dreamt of, so I kept it as close to what I remember from my dreams as possible.
Overthought uses an old riff I made back in I believe 2013.
After Listening to Twin Fantasy was how I legit felt after listening to it, but it didn't last forever. I just know that I will never feel as dedicated as he did when describing his SO in his lyrics.
Metanoia is probably the newest song on here. Inspired by therapy exercises.
NSIOWTA is the most emotional song to me. It feels too real even though it is only based on a friends suicide attempt. Thankfully she is still here. I love her so much. If you or a loved one are suffering from suicidal thoughts or major depression or anything of the like, please seek out help. in the US dial 988. For text, Text HOME to 741741.
Thank you for listening and reading,

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released August 13, 2022

Everything by: Alexander Smith

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